This post is meant to be cathartic for me. I’m feeling really bummed right now, so I need to let my emotions flow.
I would be lying if I said that I’m not close to tears right now.
Today I got a call saying that unfortunately I had not been chosen for the job I’d applied and interviewed for. He said it had nothing to do with qualifications – I was absolutely qualified – but they had so many candidates that were all qualified. He assured me that I did really well at the interview, and that they had had to make a really hard decision. And that was that. He sounded very apologetic on the phone, which made me feel a little better. But only a little.
I really, really wanted this job. I’ve applied for similar positions elsewhere and still waiting to hear back from them. But I had an actual chance of getting this job, went in for an interview and everything, and it went well – and still I wasn’t chosen.
It sucks. And I’m sad.
However, I’m aware that this is just part of the job-applying process. I know that we are 9 out of 13 candidates that got an interview that were not chosen for the 4 available positions – all qualified, but not hired. I know they had a difficult time choosing the right people, because we all seemed right.
I’m trying to focus on the positive things that are happening in my life. For example, I’ve been nominated for an awardshow in Copenhagen called Shortdox 2020, for a 3-minute short I wrote and recorded at my internship. It’s super cool, and I’m really proud of myself. I’ve played it for a few people, and they’ve all loved it and were very moved by it. The theme of the awardshow is “Transitions,” and I wrote about my experience with the transition between a hypomanic episode and depression. It’s in Danish, but I’ll still share it here when it’s been made public.
Still applying for the same position other places, and I hope that I will eventually succeed. Gotta stay positive, for my own sake. Here’s to future job opportunities – adventure is out there!
The Elephants in the Room 